"I was fired even before I can start"

I really thought I had it. Based on my previous post I thought I now have a job. So at 1pm, I was already at the building waiting for Ryan since we were supposed to go to the office together. I was nervous. But I said to myself that everything’s gonna be okay.

By the time that we were already at the office, Ryan asked me if there were tasks given to me by one of the employees there who’s assigned as to what am I supposed to do for this day. One of the employees who were sitting behind me asked and Ryan told her everything. So she texted that employee and after several minutes, I chatted her over Skype and ask if she have some task for me. She asked me what kind of position I’m really interested in. I told her that it’s up to the since I will be willing to do any or both of those tasks. I waited for more than an hour for a reply. And then she told me (after that excruciatingly long hour) that she’s not really hiring me since their boss wasn’t that certain about me. She said that their boss still wanted to have “options” on the applicants. I felt like I was hit a stone on my face. Thoughts of my father’s preparation came to my mind. I have failed him again. And now I’m too embarrassed to tell him everything.

Later

Later this afternoon will be my first day at work—technically. I still am not sure if I’m going to be working for that company next week since this week will be my probationary week. They might (the people in the office or the boss) hate me or my work. As for would be officemates, I’m not sure what to expect from them since I do not know them all, except maybe for Ryan (college block mate). He was the one who recommended the job.

I was at their office last Thursday for my interview. It was very informal and I guess I made all my answers sound so stupid. Urghhh. The place was set up as a typical office and is subdivided into two with which the first division was a little smaller than the other one. Their boss wasn’t there so I wasn’t able to meet him. When I came there at 5pm, around 10 people were there, mostly guys. And since I’m the newbie in the office, I asked Ryan if I can come with him in the office at exactly the same time. He said yes and my problem was solved :)

I’m all nervous, thrilled, and confused about this whole working thing for me. After all, this would be the first time I’m going to do this in the real world. Hope I can do good later. :)

Life after Graduation

Right after graduation, I thought of finding a job that I will learn to like and love; some job that I can become contented and be fulfilled as a person and as a professional. I really thought that it will all be easy. Yes, it is true that there are a lot of good jobs that I can try to apply to. The disadvantage of it is the there’s always a job mismatch that happens. And that’s where the difficulty of finding a job starts. My interest on a job and the company’s job description always clashes.

I wanted to write here as often as I wanted but the thought of writing and complaining how unfortunate my job hunting would be too much to bear. And since I wanted to focus on finding the right job, I opted to rest and attain that goal first. It was pretty sad and at the same time frustrating not to do one of the things that you like most. But that’s the price to pay for the things that I wanted to achieve. Months passed and I get the hang of it.

I’ve missed to write a lot of things that has happened in that span of 4 months like the news of the newly elected Philippine president Noy Aquino, his new appointees, new typhoons’ hitting the country, Lindsay Lohan on jail and Okswana Grigorieva and Mel Gibson’s nasty divorce. *laughs