Monday, October 29, 2012

Piso Sale!

As today is All Sales Day to all Philippine and International Destinations, CebuPac's site is down. Sale Period is Oct 31, 2012 or until seats last. So grab that mouse and book your flights! The travel period? Not so sure. Was not indicated on my email which arrived at 1:47 am this day. Aaand, the site is so down I can't even check what're the available destinations for grabs.

Monday, October 22, 2012

What Life Taught Me

When we were in college, the school’s career development center taught us how to make a resume, how to present ourselves and eventually ace that interview and finally be the best that we can be when that moment comes. But they never taught us how to respond to challenges, how to say the right words when you were fed with erroneous ones, what to do when people slash your confidence, when to fight when you don’t even know who got your back, and where to place yourself when you feel that you no longer have the space to fit in.

On October 19, 2012, I’ve been marked. I cried a bucket full of angst. The humiliation was unbearable and the most painful of it was that no one, not one of whom I consider family, rescued me from the abysmal wrath of life. I took it all in as if it was my entire fault and it was okay for me, honestly. But when you heard them deny things in front of everybody just to save their sorry asses off, I completely lost it. Realization hit me: I’m on my own. And no one will share my pain even when I’m screaming for my life under all that shit. Sure they will sympathize… but that’s after I’ve scraped all their garbage. Those people whom they’ve marked as unreliable are the very people who had me at my lowest point. You’ll know who you’re real friends are when things go off the shore. That, as much as it is painful to admit, is and will always be the truth.

Before sex.. you help each other get naked, after sex you only dress yourself. Moral of the story: in life no one helps you once you're fucked. -Anonymous

The core reason why I was at that situation was my fault and I’m not blaming anyone for it. But it’s just hard to accept when I got screwed as well up for a lousy job I didn’t do. How do you trust them when you’ve lost all the respect for them? With no doubt, they are capable, they’re smart, and they’re at the top. But what good will that be when the people below you do not see you as someone to be respected. Or maybe they do respect you. Why? Out of fear? Well that’s a huge slap in the face if it was me.

I’ve invested in every relationship I’m in—romantically, platonically—and so when some hideously unprecedented thing like that happens, you question everything. As if that little act you’ve experienced demolishes all the good things you’ve seen. And you try to wonder, was it all real? Or was it just some bait so that they can serve you in a hot plate, off with your head?

It’s hard to bless the people you see as the reason why you’re miserable. But what to do? I’ve done everything. To do otherwise is unacceptable. The only thing that keeps me going is the reality that this too shall pass, that no one in indispensable, that God is our witness and that sooner or later, reality will catch up with everyone.

In reality, sometimes you dodge the bullet, and sometimes, you have to experience it yourself firsthand. I do not believe that we must experience ALL the downfalls. What’s the use of the experiences from others if we don’t learned from them? Moral lessons are there so that we can relate, follow, and avoid errors if necessary. We don’t have all the luxury in the world to experience all the mistakes. We only have a limited time to be happy and I don’t want to spend half of it crying and or feeling sorry for myself because I didn’t follow the rules of life. Life goes on. And we must too.

Nothing in life makes us grow more than the way we respond to challenges. -MG

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

What Makes Me Sane

…from all the pressures in my current life is music. Sometimes I feel so burnt out that I cannot even keep a straight face in front of everybody. And of course, blogging keeps the stress away…For a short while, that is.

When things changed, I had a hard time adapting. And sometimes, the talks make it all even more stressful. I don’t know what to do. It’s difficult balancing everything from being just friends to becoming the professional worker I should be. Where does one draw that line, really?
I want to be sympathetic but I want to be respected as well.

When I first came in here, I said to myself to strictly follow this motto: “Be friendly, but never be familiar.” Did I follow this? Yes, but not in its truest sense. I sometimes caught myself sharing. YES YES YES it is normal but I just don’t want to see myself in a situation where people will someday know the whole story about me. I believe that the people, whom you gossip with, will be the people who will gossip about you someday. A circle has no beginning and no end. Indeed. It’s better not to engage from an act that could lead to conflict.

Too uptight? Maybe. But for me it has something to do with self preservation. Those same words have become my shield from all the disappointments that I could harvest from socializing too much. Anger is just one part story and it dissipates quickly. But disappointment? It will haunt you till the very end. It will become the “guiding factor” when you try to go out again. Then from time to time, your long term memory will remind you about it. That’s a lot of shit, I tell you.

I do not understand much but one thing is certain, I need to be wary.

There, I feel better.

RA 10175 TRO

I forgot to mention here–but you probably know already—that there has been a Temporary Restraining Order RE: Cybercrime Law or the RA 10175. HUHA! *Victory Dance

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