That Night When the Grim Reaper Chased Me

One of the things that I’m thankful for is the ability to remember most of my dreams vividly. For a while, I did some exercises suggested over the web so that one can master remembering and eventually, controlling my own dreams. I wasn’t that succesful though. I got tired in the end. :P I guess the constant journalizing (no matter how bizzare it gets) of every dream that I remember (which, BTW, happens almost every night) took it’s toll. My sister once called me neurotic. It was fun but when I realized that I’m not getting somewhere—my goal was to control what my dreams will be, I decided to stop.

Today, I’m gonna tell you one of the odd dreams that I had. It was strange but at the same time, life changing. I hope it will change me for I can only speak about the present, look back on my past, and hope for the future...

One Sunday morning, my pillow vibrated—more like my alarm clock vibrated. I have long accepted that I can no longer hear (no matter how noisy it’ll be) the ringing of my alarm clock; something defective about my ears I guess. I looked at the time and horror filled me. It’s already 6:40 in the morning! I should’ve woken up earlier! I’m a slow mover when it comes to dressing and preparing so when I discovered that I’m 40 minutes late with my should-be prep time, I decided, well, considered the idea of staying at home and cuddle on my bed, my warm bed with the weather so coooold.... And on to the dream land.

Thank You!

Last January 14 of this year, my story got published. It got published in a Filipino blog called Definitely Filipino. I was like saying OMG the whole time I learned it got published. Some commented that that post made his day but his comment made mine. The most heartwarming of all was those people who are now taking some efforts to show their love for their family. I'm jealous at them but happy at the same time.

Today, I read it again and found a whole lot of grammatical error! :)) Okay, I know I'm not good about grammars and stuffs but that's the story I willingly submitted to a wide audience, hence the need to double check it a million times. But it's done and there's nothing more that I can do about it. That article was written a long time ago... around 2009 and I was still grasping the thought of being a blogger. Or maybe not :P

The article I submitted was just a short story but I felt the urgency to share it to everybody because I really believe that we should treasure each others' company as long as we can since we don't know when our time will come. The title was A Confession: To the Woman I First Loved. And that's my first and last display of grief —publicly. All my post from here on now will be mine and well, to anyone who wishes to visit. If there's even one. HAHAHA!

I submitted it maybe because I still haven't gotten over my mom and her death. I was there when her right arm got broken, we were in an ambulance and I was just this kid trying to calm both of us. I know I could have done more when we were in the hospital... It's easy to say that I haven't forgiven myself but Jesus died for all of my past shortcomings and I, as a believer, should have forgiven myself a long time ago. It's hard. I didn't really expect that she'll die... But she did.

And that was a minute of reminiscing the most tragic thing that ever happened in my life. :) I just wanted to thank everyone who appreciated my story, our story. And don't stop loving everyone. Be thankful that they're still there to scold you and annoy and everything else that comes along with having them still. Thanks for the warm feedbacks, it's truly inspiring to hear such nice comments. So long! :)

About Time

There's a group of people working outside everyone's houses right now to construct a small ditch. I think the recent flooding in our town prompted this move. It's about time they do something about it. Good work nonetheless. And cheers to those workers who're working under the rain. :) 

A Night With Good Friends

Last December 26, 2011, I went to the city! YEAH! After months of not seeing my friends, I was able to meet my former classmates (Z3). We had lunch and it was fun. I decided to be in the city earlier than that of the agreed time I'm supposed to meet the (Mature)4 so I can spend time with the Z3 people.

Von is bigger than the last time I saw him! And Roselle, well, she gained a few pounds and told us all that she's now exercising. Honey's still beautiful. :) It was a lunch together with Moi, Jing, Maris, Nat, Paul, Lloyd and Jose. After, I met up with Kring, Kim, Kai, Yang, Lloyd (again) and Camz.

We had dinner (except Kim), took pictures, ate, took pictures some more and talked about everything. We stayed in an inn and had breakfast the next day. Lloyd was a bit sick and Kai. I think it has something to do with the weather.  But overall, it was ALL FUN! I'm thankful that I get to see Lloyd and Kim before they resume their work in faraway lands. :D Thank you guys! (Photos credit to Kring)

Happy New Year! Welcome 2012!

I'm kind of busy this past few days that I wasn't able to blog. Aaaand, my internet connection is broke sooo.. Anyway, I finally read the full contents of I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris since the first time I read it, I don't have my own copy.

I'm TRYING my best to live like how he lived his single life - living in the way that pleases God. It's HAAARD! But when I think about it, it's not just about me, it's also about the other person that I'm gonna be involving in my selfish desires. I don't want that. I'm not immune to attractions, no but I know that I'm doing the other person a lot of favor because right now, I'm not ready to commit to marriage (sounds extreme, eh?). Heck, I'm not ready to even commit in a serious relationship as well!

These past months, I've had so many realizations that I will never learn only by attending Sunday services. But of course, I need people with whom I can talk to. And with that being said, I need to read more Christian books. I could say that it's easier to deal with people this time since I can understand them better. It's sort of having that peace in progress? I have not yet arrived in the fullness of that peace but I'm walking there. It's hard to explain! :))

I guess I'm not gonna be able to post some more in the coming days but I just want to greet you all a Happy New Year! :)